Feel like Crying

[elflover59]

I have a roommate who is one of my few friends. Like me he is very religious. But there is a big different between us. He goes to church twice a week, Bible study and Outreach ones a week. I don't go to Church, mostly because i get very bad anxiety plus high BP when leaving the house plus i don't study the Bible. What i do is i pray every night and try to be a good person. In the last 10 years i took like 20 peoples in and let them stay with me till they found a job and a own place to stay. I believe very much in our creator but it looks like being a good person is not enough. I always hear from my roommate i am going to HELL because i am not going to Church. It hurts so much to hear this because i do thing i am a good person. But if you hear this often you start to not believe in your self. Thats why i never talk about my believe because of things like this. I guess i will not be along in this place because there are so many people out there who are like me. I just feel like crying now after Hearing again acording to the Bible i am not good enough.

P.S. For some reason i posted the same entry 3 times and when i deleted two of them ,i deleted the one with all the comments. I wanted to keep your kind comments so i just put them back here from the e-mail.

Comments

[chephren.livejournal.com]

Hey Love, I am so sorry to hear that!! :( I really do know what you mean! I think you really are one of the sweetest people out there! You are always doing things for others, on LJ as well when you make the avs! That in itself is very kind of you! XD You know, I personally think the way you handle yourself is very classy, being a kind person and treating others well no matter whether you make it to church or not and not having to go trumpet your devoutness to other people. Very cool! XD

When I was in college, I knew many people who would party it up on Saturday night, get wasted, sleep around, not really giving or anything, and they would then show up to church on Sunday morning... but does this make them devout? I think that you are really doing just fine! Plus, it really isn't that classy to tell people they are going to Hell, is it?

Granted, these are all my opinions but I think that you are doing the best you can, really and if it is stressful for you to be in certain situations with a lot of people then you shouldn't have to be. There are people who are privately religious and that is very okay! Our creator knows your mind and I know that He/She/It knows that you care! *big huggles!!!*

[elflover59.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your kind words. They helped a lot.Believe it or not but he is the nicest person,funny and helpful but when it comes to religion he has his mind set in what to believe."huggles