Feel like Crying

[elflover59]

I have a roommate who is one of my few friends. Like me he is very religious. But there is a big different between us. He goes to church twice a week, Bible study and Outreach ones a week. I don't go to Church, mostly because i get very bad anxiety plus high BP when leaving the house plus i don't study the Bible. What i do is i pray every night and try to be a good person. In the last 10 years i took like 20 peoples in and let them stay with me till they found a job and a own place to stay. I believe very much in our creator but it looks like being a good person is not enough. I always hear from my roommate i am going to HELL because i am not going to Church. It hurts so much to hear this because i do thing i am a good person. But if you hear this often you start to not believe in your self. Thats why i never talk about my believe because of things like this. I guess i will not be along in this place because there are so many people out there who are like me. I just feel like crying now after Hearing again acording to the Bible i am not good enough.

P.S. For some reason i posted the same entry 3 times and when i deleted two of them ,i deleted the one with all the comments. I wanted to keep your kind comments so i just put them back here from the e-mail.

Comments

[naurring.livejournal.com]

The bible was written by humans, not by God. They held damn *councils* to decide what they liked well enough to put inside. Humans make mistakes, humans deliberately twist things to their own liking, and having the bible say 'you have to go to church' has few to do with God being disappointed with you, if you don't go.

You can tell your roommate that next time he tries to make you feel inferior with saying that praying in a church is worth so much more than praying in your home, according to the bible. Doesn't seem very Christian, either. I guess it's just simpler to point fingers and nicely go to Church, and feel safe in your belief that that's all you have to do, instead of making a real effort to be a good person. I'm not religious, but I doubt that God would feel so happy about this, or about people degrading each other based on the fact where they pray. And isn't there this matter of God supposedly being everywhere? So why should it matter where you pray, he would hear you everywhere.

It's probably hard, but try not to let this get to you too much. My agnostic opinion might not be worth much, but I do think that it would not matter to God if you pray in a church or not.

And perhaps, get yourself some comfort food/drink and just cry for a while, if you feel like it. Makes me usually feel better, at least, to let it out. *hugs tightly* You're NOT a bad person, no matter what your roommate says.